ok, quick update.

so.. today i was "browsing" on facebook (some may call it facebook stalking.) i just wanted to see people's Halloween costumes, so i made my way over to my cousin's photo album. since he's all the way in Scotland, i wouldn't really talk to him in between visits if it weren't for facebook.

quick flashback

this summer i went to my cousin's friend's birthday party. the people there were kind of... weird. there was beer available, so i had a few to loosen up. eight or nine Budweisers later, and i was playing Dungeons and Dragons with some guys. although i don't really remember much, i do remember a geeky, yet adorable guy helping me through the game - explaining the complicated instructions that i pretended to understand. helping me read some cards despite my tunnel-vision. i did remember his name, though - Macauley. we flirted innocently (from what i can remember.) he eventually left the party and left me with a really happy feeling - i had just broken up with someone i had deeply cared for a few months before and hadn't felt as light as i did when i met him (is that what "love at first sight" is? not that i really believe in it..) even after the alcohol wore off, i still felt the same. anyways, i left for America a few days later.

ok, so maybe the flashback wasn't as quick as promised. i got a little wrapped up. now, back to the facebook story.

i found a picture of my cousin's Halloween party, and then his friend's profile. i sort of awkwardly sent him a Friend request with a note, remember me? i'm the annoying American girl who drank all of your beer at your birthday party....
/rambling

to get to the point, i found Macauley's profile. i'm excited to be in touch again. i've been inspired to shape up my life for the summer when i get to see him again. i use "shape up" in every sense. ideally, i would like to improve my health... healthily. that means no fasting for extended periods of time, no major restricting, no binging or purging attempts. i'm going to start running again, stop smoking (weed included,) and most importantly, BE POSITIVE